A time for stillness

Here I am again with another Covid 19 post, I am going insane.
One small tidbit about me is that I have to keep busy in order to feel sane, the busier I am the less I nitpick my own life. This virus has forced me to stop all patterns of what I was doing previously and just sit with myself, day after day.

I'm not alone in this either.

I feel like a majority of people are feeling hopeless, depressed, with emotions running high. If you live with others, you may all be driving each other crazy at this point.

Although there's weird comfort in the fact that we are all going through this together. I don't feel left out when I'm not hanging out with friends because everyone isn't hanging out. I can't look at someone's recent trip to Europe because a majority of us aren't traveling right now.
I read a post this morning about how America will gaslight us once this virus has slowed down and business returns as usual. Here's the post if anyone is interested:
https://forge.medium.com/prepare-for-the-ultimate-gaslighting-6a8ce3f0a0e0

I've already seen it with businesses, for example retail, starting up more sales than usual. I get so many emails about free shipping, 50% off loungewear, 20% off deal today only, etc. I think we are all seeking normalcy and if we can just buy some new clothes or get that new iPhone, it'll make us feel better for a while.

Although this isn't normal at all, and I think it's so important for me, along with society, to remember this event. I hope this does change us in a way, maybe to appreciate the smaller things in life more. To carefully pick the politicians next time, to focus on the feelings we felt during this time to help us in the future.

This time has been hard, but it's been like therapy to me. It's forced me to look inward and make changes to bad habits I've had for so long and to truly focus on what I want out of the next 5 years of my life. I'm 25 and I try to ignore the fact I'm getting older. Although I should be focusing on what could I do to improve so that I fall in love with life. That I'm so passionate about my life that I'm too busy to think about the dread of getting older, not meeting my goals, not living life the way others do. To just be happy.

I think this is a good time in a way, and although it's heartbreaking, I think it's teaching us valuable lessons that we shouldn't forget.

It's a rainy Monday for me, I've got my coffee in hand and I think it's time I finally get around to finishing my statistics homework.

Have a great day everyone